I always feel more invested in things like this when I put it out there in the world...so here it is. In 2008, I kept a food diary (on Calorie Count) and I lost more than 20 pounds. I have had 2 kids since then and fluctuated way back up again and way back down again (with the help of the Whole30 diet...which I completed, though it was not easy and I'm very hesitant to try it again...one major reason is that I love alcohol and the thought of going 30 days without it again just seems ridiculous).
So with running (and training for) a marathon, I got into the habit of eating whatever I wanted. And I may not have gained much weight through that (and ate A LOT), I definitely didn't lose any. So now that I'm running less (only between 3 and 4.5 miles per run...but I've been running more often, almost daily)...I'm still eating a lot and feeling pretty down on myself. I also drink too much...not for alcoholic type standards, but there are a lot of calories in wine, so having 2-3 glasses on any given night AND snacking regularly like I'm some kind of calorie burning queen is not a good combination for me, or my body. I'm still at a healthy weight, but I suspect I'm at the high end of healthy...borderline overweight.
That's not who I identify as...and my clothes agree. So I started the food journal yesterday, this time with My Fitness Pal because I have a Garmin VivoActive HR and they play well together. I ate over 2,500 calories (that's including the 2-3 glasses of wine) and then gave up tracking what I was eating. But this morning, instead of feeling discouraged, I woke up feeling determined. I've done this before. I've done a million things harder than this. Not to brag, but I've pumped (breastmilk) while driving...I've breastfed and pumped while at work for 2 full years of my life. I've trained for and ran a half and full marathon. I completed one Whole30 (which really felt as hard for me as my first two examples combined). I've written 2 full books, one during NaNoWriMo (not that I've been able to get either published, but still..). I've definitely had a crapload of determination to accomplish goals that I've set my mind to...so I can absolutely watch what I eat, set a calorie deficit goal, and lose 5-10 pounds (15 would be ideal). Right? Right??
Yea...so, I'm off to the base with my kids so I can run on a trail before getting some healthy food. I'll try checking in again with my progress soon (of course, if you don't hear from me, that's probably not a good sign).